For my family
I wish you peaceful sleep and dreamless nights. I wish for you to find a way, a place for all those thoughts. If I could take it all away and make it better, I would. Its okay to feel it, its okay to want the world to stop and take notice.
Its also okay to move one foot in front of the other. Inching our way to a place where today lives and yesterday is remembered. Where tomorrow will never forget, but promises to let you smile.
Jenn, all I can say is it's gonna take a lot of time - but one day you'll realize that it doesn't hurt as much and then you'll even feel guilty that you don't cry as much, that you don't quite think of him as much as you always did - but then again you always think of them - there is always something to remind you. 25 years will go by and you'll wonder what he would like like at 40 or 50, what would his kids be like - but all you have is a faded memory and you want so much more. And just when you think you'll be okay - you'll have to attend the funeral of yet another young man gone way too soon and all the anguish that you felt will come crashing back on you and even though you are mourning someone else you are again mourning your lost loved one. It's never easy - just keep on stepping it's all you can do, that and hope that you will meet again, in another life. Annie
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